59 days.......

59 days until 26 miles 365 yards.....scary.
As I continue to reflect on Saturday's tough run, i realize how mental this game is. In my last blog, i talked about how physically prepared i was for 14....reflecting back, i see a lot of things that prevented me from being mentally prepared and a lot of gut instincts that I ignored. 1) I am reading a book called "First Marathons". A collection of essays from first timers. I read a story each night before a long run. Friday, the story I read was from a man who was miserable during his marathon and has never run one since. It was a humorous story, but tragic and depressing. Instinct told me that in needed a more inspirational story to sleep on, but after a page of a new story, I closed the book and slept. 2) When i woke up, it was storming. I got up, knowing the storm would pass, which it did. Instinct told me to forget the trail as I didn't know anything about it and figured rain may have compromised it if a dirt trail and just run the neighborhood. I ignored it and drove around for over an hour trying to run the trail. This was a very frustrating experience and after a few f-bombs and steering wheel thumps, I talked myself down and drove home. 3) Instinct told me to just run 4.5 on Sat and get out earlier for 14 on Sunday. I ignored that too. 4) Finally, as i started running, i realized that my water bottle belt was upside down, tried to flip while running, but failed and had to stop. Somehow un-hooked the water bottle and as i started to run, it fell out. FRUSTRATED.

Think any of these mental hurdles got in my way from a better run?? I do. This is a mental and physical test. I need to be stronger in both areas and believe whole heartedly that where I was mentally Saturday hurt me as much, if not more, than the weather conditions.

Another lesson learned.

I promised to talk about how why I'm doing this is becoming clearer to me and I will. Just too late tonight and I've said enough already. Soon....

We went over $1000 in donations today. Extremely proud, but on Team LUNGevity, we're 4th in total dollars. Not good enough for me. How 'bout you? Is 4th good enough? Get the word out and let's make a statement. A big statement. Thanks. P